You never know what the next second may hold, so you should cherish each moment as if it were your last. For everyone who are close to me know about the battle my angel has encounter since birth, but shes a fighter and has made it to this point. I believe that God has a plan, while I dont understand why this is happening to my baby girl; I do believe there is a purpose and plan behind it all. Raya Angelina Digby has changed my life for the better and the love I have for her is like no other. She has touched so many lives and will continue to do so. I have been faced with a situation where I know the true meaning of the statement cherish each moment. One day I'm having an amazing day, taking my baby to the park for the first time, watching her smile and play....very next day not knowing if my child may live or die. How much can one person take? Is the question I have found myself asking a lot over the last few months. No matter what happens I thank God for the 4months he has blessed me with to have a true Angel in my presence. If it is his will to see her through this and keep her here with me then every last single moment will be cherished like the other. Sitting here wishing i could just hear my baby cry, change a dirty diaper, to have her squeeze my finger, pinch my lips, hear her baby talk, just anything... I have put it in the hands of God and will allow him to do his will.
Thanks to my family, co-workers, and friends that has been there for Raya and I....
love you all
MOMMY LOVES YOU RAYA
YOU ARE MOMMY'S LITTLE ANGEL, A TRUE GIFT TO THE WORLD
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
Friday, June 12, 2009
Forgive Me
Forgive Me lord for I have sinned
Forgive Me boy, girl, man, & woman for any hurt I may have placed upon you
Forgive Me...for I'm not perfect
Forgive Me...for the times I tried to changed, but fell back into my old ways
Forgive Me for knowing what was right, but doing what was wrong
Forgive Me lord for I have sinned...............
♥ ♥ ♥
Forgive Me boy, girl, man, & woman for any hurt I may have placed upon you
Forgive Me...for I'm not perfect
Forgive Me...for the times I tried to changed, but fell back into my old ways
Forgive Me for knowing what was right, but doing what was wrong
Forgive Me lord for I have sinned...............
♥ ♥ ♥
Sunday, April 5, 2009
PIECE OF ME>>>SOME THOUGHTS
I believe that all that we go through in life, the good and the bad is all for a reason. I have learned to take all the negative stuff that I have encounter in the past few years in turn it into a positive>>>>how you ask....well with everything I have learned, I can now apply that to my future and not make the same mistake. I can also advise young females about some of the things I have been through, so that they wont travel the same path I traveled and got lost along the way, just help others make wiser decisions, letting them now how bad ones can affect you in the long run. I have never claim to me lil Ms. Perfect and know that I will never be! I'm human, so I'm entitle to make mistakes and I'm woman/real enough to admit to my mistakes....because I know its not the things that I have done that makes me who I am, its what I have learned from it. I'm woman enough to own up to my mistakes because my mistakes are in my past {whether it happen a year, a month, a week, or even a day ago...its still my past} and only God can judge me and only God has a heaven or hell to put me in. So while you are busy pointing out others faults, remember you got three fingers pointing back at you, so make sure you got yours self together before you pass judgement on anyone!
HERE GOES SOME ADVICE......
~everyone isn't always who or what they seem to be. So don't be naive to believe what someone say, even when it sounds so good. ACTIONS speaks much louder than words. So if a person actions isn't matching up with there words....cut them off before you get in to deep!!
~everyone who smile in your face, isn't your friend! FAKENESS will never be a trend!!! Know who your real friends are!! Make a list of what a true friend is to you, then see how many of the people you call a friend possesses those things you look for in a true friend...more then likely not many!!! Out of your lil click you hang with you may have less than half of them who are truly your friend!
~to all my females.....lets stop looking for a man to complete us! Forget Keyshia Cole song...if you let a man whole your heart in his hand, your giving him the power to break it!!! If you need a man to complete you, then your lacking a lot!!!! Stop looking for a man to make us happy! I must say I'm a sucker for love and mushy stuff, so yes its nice to be all booed up and stuff but you have to know how you can make yourself happy and the only person you need to complete you and make you happy is GOD!! Know what qualities you are looking for in a man, no i really doubt that you will find a guy who meets ever last one of them but if I guy barely makes the cut...CUT him loose! WE as females sometimes deal with guys who we know anit no good, and then we want to complain and be all upset, talking about how he no good!! Remember ladies relationship are just like jobs....A guy will put his best foot forward in the interview to get the job, just like he going to show you his good side to get you! Once he got the you/job, his true colors will start to show, its up to us to evaluate him and when his performance is falling off ...time for TERMINATION!!! Life is too short to make excuse of why you should keep someone in your life....we all have to face fact that everyone that comes into our life aint meant to be there for a life time, so we have to stop trying to make seasonal people stay in our life when their time is up....seasonal people come into our for a reason and that reason is to teach us something, once that lesson is learned we have to let go!!
~NEVER trust anyone until they earn it! POINT, BLANK, PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
~Try you hardest not to lose yourself, not to lose site of who you are and what you stand for! Life will never be easy for anyone! So when the going get tough, don't give up and don't give in.....let it go and let GOD! When you feel in your heart and in the back of your head you know something is wrong, DON'T DO IT!!!!
~When you got something good, hold on to it!!! Good things don't come easy, it may come easy but you have to work hard to keep it!!
~The grass isn't always greener on the other side! Just cause something seem to be better than what you already got....be careful, like I stated before everything anit always what it seems to be!
HERE GOES SOME ADVICE......
~everyone isn't always who or what they seem to be. So don't be naive to believe what someone say, even when it sounds so good. ACTIONS speaks much louder than words. So if a person actions isn't matching up with there words....cut them off before you get in to deep!!
~everyone who smile in your face, isn't your friend! FAKENESS will never be a trend!!! Know who your real friends are!! Make a list of what a true friend is to you, then see how many of the people you call a friend possesses those things you look for in a true friend...more then likely not many!!! Out of your lil click you hang with you may have less than half of them who are truly your friend!
~to all my females.....lets stop looking for a man to complete us! Forget Keyshia Cole song...if you let a man whole your heart in his hand, your giving him the power to break it!!! If you need a man to complete you, then your lacking a lot!!!! Stop looking for a man to make us happy! I must say I'm a sucker for love and mushy stuff, so yes its nice to be all booed up and stuff but you have to know how you can make yourself happy and the only person you need to complete you and make you happy is GOD!! Know what qualities you are looking for in a man, no i really doubt that you will find a guy who meets ever last one of them but if I guy barely makes the cut...CUT him loose! WE as females sometimes deal with guys who we know anit no good, and then we want to complain and be all upset, talking about how he no good!! Remember ladies relationship are just like jobs....A guy will put his best foot forward in the interview to get the job, just like he going to show you his good side to get you! Once he got the you/job, his true colors will start to show, its up to us to evaluate him and when his performance is falling off ...time for TERMINATION!!! Life is too short to make excuse of why you should keep someone in your life....we all have to face fact that everyone that comes into our life aint meant to be there for a life time, so we have to stop trying to make seasonal people stay in our life when their time is up....seasonal people come into our for a reason and that reason is to teach us something, once that lesson is learned we have to let go!!
~NEVER trust anyone until they earn it! POINT, BLANK, PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!!!
~Try you hardest not to lose yourself, not to lose site of who you are and what you stand for! Life will never be easy for anyone! So when the going get tough, don't give up and don't give in.....let it go and let GOD! When you feel in your heart and in the back of your head you know something is wrong, DON'T DO IT!!!!
~When you got something good, hold on to it!!! Good things don't come easy, it may come easy but you have to work hard to keep it!!
~The grass isn't always greener on the other side! Just cause something seem to be better than what you already got....be careful, like I stated before everything anit always what it seems to be!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
LOST
Lost in the memories of what use to be
You know the good ole days, when it was you and me
Lost in the thoughts
That play in my head like a melody
You know wanting so bad to do right
Buy yet you give in
Giving in to the thoughts of ...
A lost soul...
Lurking for peace of mind
Which isn't that easy to find
Lost for words...............................
When I want to express myself to the world
Showing the real me
Letting everyone know its not always like what you see nor what you hear
I lost myself in a man and thought I had found who I was
but yet I fell deeper and deeper
Into a state of being lost
Lost in this thing we call life
Realizing I must find myself, see who I am, what I stand for
"If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything"
side note* I told my friend how i was feeling and what I was going through, and she gave me some great words of encouragement that may be helpful to others.... "Well the good part is that you recognize what issues you have and trying to do something different, sign of maturity. Whatever you do just don't beat yourself up for dong things in the past that was not you. Dust yourself off, get back up and keep it rolling" S.H.
You know the good ole days, when it was you and me
Lost in the thoughts
That play in my head like a melody
You know wanting so bad to do right
Buy yet you give in
Giving in to the thoughts of ...
A lost soul...
Lurking for peace of mind
Which isn't that easy to find
Lost for words...............................
When I want to express myself to the world
Showing the real me
Letting everyone know its not always like what you see nor what you hear
I lost myself in a man and thought I had found who I was
but yet I fell deeper and deeper
Into a state of being lost
Lost in this thing we call life
Realizing I must find myself, see who I am, what I stand for
"If you don't stand for something, you will fall for anything"
side note* I told my friend how i was feeling and what I was going through, and she gave me some great words of encouragement that may be helpful to others.... "Well the good part is that you recognize what issues you have and trying to do something different, sign of maturity. Whatever you do just don't beat yourself up for dong things in the past that was not you. Dust yourself off, get back up and keep it rolling" S.H.
Saturday, December 27, 2008
He is....
A lot, if not all females seek for the perfect guy not necessarily perfect but a guy who possesses all the qualities we look for in a man. Which is so hard to find....we come across a guy who seems like Mr. Right but months later he change up and his true colors show or you just don't feel the connection with them like you was hoping, so now your back to square one....searching for your Mr. Right. I come to realize that yea I'm not going to settle for less then I know I deserve but I cant go looking for a perfect guy when I'm not a perfect woman.
I met this guy who is....hmmm
He is my friend when I need someone to talk to and keep it real with me
He is a lover when I'm feeling lonely and need to hear sweet nothings or just companionship
He is my favorite buddy.
Its so funny how we became cool but ever since, he has always remain the same dude...REAL!!
He understands me and I understand him...yea we have a disagreements and don't always see eye to eye but at the end of the day ... I got mad love for him. I pray that we always stay cool and close and we remain BUDDIES FOR LIFE.
LOVE YOU
I met this guy who is....hmmm
He is my friend when I need someone to talk to and keep it real with me
He is a lover when I'm feeling lonely and need to hear sweet nothings or just companionship
He is my favorite buddy.
Its so funny how we became cool but ever since, he has always remain the same dude...REAL!!
He understands me and I understand him...yea we have a disagreements and don't always see eye to eye but at the end of the day ... I got mad love for him. I pray that we always stay cool and close and we remain BUDDIES FOR LIFE.
LOVE YOU
Saturday, December 20, 2008
Refuse to give up, Refuse to give in
Through all life challenges
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Guy after Guy
Heartbreak after Heartbreak
Disappointment after Disappointment
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Lessons after lessons
Some over and over again but...
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Lurking for attention
Seeking for authentic Friends
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Times are hard
Bills are past due
Hours are cut, money is too
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
School is a pain and sometimes drives me insane
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
So no matter what life throws at me
No matter what others think
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, I REFUSE TO GIVE IN
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Guy after Guy
Heartbreak after Heartbreak
Disappointment after Disappointment
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Lessons after lessons
Some over and over again but...
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Lurking for attention
Seeking for authentic Friends
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
Times are hard
Bills are past due
Hours are cut, money is too
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
School is a pain and sometimes drives me insane
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, REFUSE TO GIVE IN
So no matter what life throws at me
No matter what others think
I REFUSE TO GIVE UP, I REFUSE TO GIVE IN
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